Hmm, Let's Begin Here

If yesterday's and my latest posts show that I'm so desperate of my life. It's true. I was depressed by a lot of things. Many things happened and I felt loneliness (which is just an impact of my exaggerating side, which is not completely true). I was a negative person, as my bf told me, and yeah it's true. I often think about this and that, well, they're not actually needed, they even wrecked my day.

Til something happened yesterday. I was told about a really touchy-real life story, about a person I hated ( not hate actually, I was jealous of her). And it made my heart cry, I don't know why it sounded so sad and also made me feel sorry that I have hated her for some stupid reasons. I was so shallow-minded. Frankly, she was the one who made someone I know so well changed in a good way. I'm thankful for that.

I'm almost seventeen right now and wondering why I still act like a 14 year old girl? haha. I really want to change. So here I am. A brand new day, a brand new me. I'm no longer a cold hearted and shallow kid anymore. I am different and want to stay like this forever :)

yesitstrue

"Sampe kapan kamu mau pertahanin sifat kaya gitu?"


and tears fell down




the only reason why i hate you saying that is because i know it's true



i feel weakness

that tough girl who smiled even when her heart was crying, she's not here anymore

-empty

Akhir-akhir ini saya merasa kosong











Mungkin bukan cuma akhir-akhir ini

GRASSLAND

I desperately need green grass land, blue sky, commulus cloud, and fresh air
Currently interested in living in a village
No more busy town
No more rush hours

Just you, me, and our shack

Temenin ke sana dong somebody pleaseeee :D

Hanya Ini Yang Bisa Saya Lakukan

Bencana Merapi. Mengerikan memang. Mau jadi relawan ke sana tapi mana dibolehin. Headline Kompas hari ini, kemarin, kemarinnya lagi, bikin hati rasanya mau nangis. Tapi nangis juga gak ngubah apa-apa. Untuk saat ini saya cuma bisa berdoa, untuk yang meninggal, untuk yang kehilangan, juga untuk semua orang supaya hatinya ikut tergerak untuk ngasih bantuan. Sekarang ini bersyukurlah karena kita yang ngebantu, bukan yang dibantu.

noideaforthetitle:p

when everyone dances, plays their musical instruments, paints, acts....

I SING

WELL. AT LEAST I THINK I DO.

sounds ridiculous huh? because nobody knows i ever sing
my voice is not so entertaining
i sing for myself
to cheer myself up

:)

Ckck

untuk ke sana.....mustahil. nyaris sih.

memangnya dalam dua tahun bisa apa?

makin banyak lembaran itu dikembalikan, saya selangkah makin ketinggalan

sekalinya saya ketinggalan, peluang makin menutup diri

saat peluang menutup diri, jarak semakin jadi masalah

setelah jarak bermasalah

apa saya masih mampu? kalau saya mampu, sampai kapan batasnya? kalau ternyata tak terbatas? menyerah di tempat? begitu saja? selesai sudah?

ternyata hidup tidak semudah yang saya kira ya